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People say "live in the present."
or
"Enjoy today."
But isn't it rather fun to look down the road a little further? I like doing that. Admittedly, sometimes it freaks me out, and perhaps because of that I shouldn't, but I think it's rather like an addiction: I just want to imagine what life will be like.....
2 years: I'm going to be bawling my eyes out as I walk down the aisle in Elliot Hall. I'll crane my neck to see Amanda, because I'll know that if I can see her blubbering away, then I will laugh instead of cry, but she's sitting way over in the school of Education section, and I can't see her... Amidst the thousands of hands clapping, I know that my parents grandparents are joining in. My dad is crying. My siblings couldn't come because there weren't enough tickets, and my mom is worrying that there won't be enough crackers for the party afterwards. Then it's my turn to walk across the stage and get my diploma from **hopefully not** Martin Jischke. I grin and wave. Tomorrow I start on a trip around the globe (a graduation gift from my parents) and my stuff is already moved into an apartment in Tennessee that is only one block from Vanderbilt University where I'll be studying for my Ph.D.
4 years: Another graduation. I'm wearing tassels. "Dr. Courtney E. Blake, Ph.D., Aud." I'll already have business cards printed. I'm going to work in New York. My crowd of friends is a little thinner. Amanda is married and has two little girls, Laura is in Hawaii with her Navy Seal, Debi is in Peru teaching math, my brother has just graduated with a degree in bioengineering, there are others- now married, scattered around the United States.
I could keep going. Sometimes I want to. I want to imagine life when I'm forty, sixty, eighty, but that's when I start getting a little scared and overwhelmed, and that's when I realize that God knows best. If I could see everything in my future, I would doubtless be paralyzed with fear. But all He gave me was today.
That's all I can see.
But it's also all I can live.
Here's to the Great Adventure!!!!
Live vicariously!!!
or
"Enjoy today."
But isn't it rather fun to look down the road a little further? I like doing that. Admittedly, sometimes it freaks me out, and perhaps because of that I shouldn't, but I think it's rather like an addiction: I just want to imagine what life will be like.....
2 years: I'm going to be bawling my eyes out as I walk down the aisle in Elliot Hall. I'll crane my neck to see Amanda, because I'll know that if I can see her blubbering away, then I will laugh instead of cry, but she's sitting way over in the school of Education section, and I can't see her... Amidst the thousands of hands clapping, I know that my parents grandparents are joining in. My dad is crying. My siblings couldn't come because there weren't enough tickets, and my mom is worrying that there won't be enough crackers for the party afterwards. Then it's my turn to walk across the stage and get my diploma from **hopefully not** Martin Jischke. I grin and wave. Tomorrow I start on a trip around the globe (a graduation gift from my parents) and my stuff is already moved into an apartment in Tennessee that is only one block from Vanderbilt University where I'll be studying for my Ph.D.
4 years: Another graduation. I'm wearing tassels. "Dr. Courtney E. Blake, Ph.D., Aud." I'll already have business cards printed. I'm going to work in New York. My crowd of friends is a little thinner. Amanda is married and has two little girls, Laura is in Hawaii with her Navy Seal, Debi is in Peru teaching math, my brother has just graduated with a degree in bioengineering, there are others- now married, scattered around the United States.
I could keep going. Sometimes I want to. I want to imagine life when I'm forty, sixty, eighty, but that's when I start getting a little scared and overwhelmed, and that's when I realize that God knows best. If I could see everything in my future, I would doubtless be paralyzed with fear. But all He gave me was today.
That's all I can see.
But it's also all I can live.
Here's to the Great Adventure!!!!
Live vicariously!!!
posted by COURTNEY at 8:30 AM
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